Wednesday 16 September 2020

My crush


 2006, I was in 9th Standard . It was children’s day and it was colour dress day and it was colourful indeed. I was in my adolescence age and this marvellous magic passes by me and gave me those chill butterflies effects for the first time. That floating Flying feel with tinch of breathtaking and heart pounding effects, everything at the same time. Triggering reason for those unexperienced, unexpected feelings was a girl, sorry an angel. Yep, an angel !! Wingless angel, who was wearing a soft green half saree which made her fair skin to glow like a Full moon and those eyes, full black eyes, it sucked me inside like a black hole and that was the Primary reason for the tachycardia followed by tachypnoea. Her charming pretty face with a default sweet smile fixed so perfectly like a diamond. Her hair was like a black waterfalls, long and silky. In that wet look, I can see it all day. But that’s all for that day, she crossed and walked away like a waning moon. It’s been more than 10 years now and Still I can’t describe the feelings I got for her just like that out of nowhere. Still Today I can replay those beautiful 5 seconds when she crossed me. And yes !! She was my first crush and  her impact is like beautiful Tattoo on my brain. THARUNIKA 🥰 the angel which I witnessed for the first time.

Tuesday 31 October 2017

“MAN” THE BLUEWHALE GAME FOR CHASTITY

“MAN” THE BLUEWHALE GAME FOR CHASTITY

Amaithiya veedunga irukura edam almost ellarum middle class, athula oru veetula aallntha amaithiyum sogamum polambalum katharalum ketkuthu. antha veetula oru room la oru bright aana light athuku adila oru chinna ponnu onu, kalanjipona school dress la moonja marachikitu theambi theambi aluthukitu udambu nadungikitu iruku. Room ku velila hall la antha ponnoda parent, oru eranthuponavanga veetula ulla maari utkanthu irukanga amma romba theambi theambi aluthu poi sorvu adainthu avanga kanvar meala saanji aluthu tu irukanga antha kanavarum polambi aluthu kitu irukaru. Veetuku velila oru reporter phone la pesitu irukaru

Reporter:
* in phone *
Yeah.. yeah.. school ponnu thaan kandipa 18 kulla thaan irukum, minor age ponu thaan, school dress la thaan irunthu iruka
Inaiku evening nadanthu iruku school lerunthu varumpothu some driver intha asingamaana velaiya paathu irukan, avana paathilayea thaduthu pudichitanga, avana alachitu thaan inga varanga, appo avana mudinja avana karchief la iruku maariyavathu photo eduthuduren,  parent kita formality mudichitu avana jail ku alachitu poramari irukanga nu shekar sir sonnaru
Ponnoda school matum thaan therium ,ponu peru age matum therinjikita kooda FB la searcchi panni patha DP keadika vaaipu iruku apporam office la poi editor ah paatha ethana nalla vishayam nadakum*siren sound* SP vantaaru di nan unna apporam koopuduren naan
Sir !! sir !! avan ethanala intha ponna choose panna  sir, aven intha ponukita ithuku munadi intha maari ethavathu panni irukana sir, entha edathula sir, evaloneram sir, sir ethavathu solllunga sir….

Police:
Ennathaiya ungaluku sollanum oru poova oru mirugam kasaki irukan, ellavu veedoda intha veedu paavamana veeduya. Intha karumam nadanthu moonumanaram kooda aagala da athukula una maari aalunga ungaloda laabathukaaga oru chinna ponu, ava vaalka, avanga koodumbam nu ethumea paakama ava peru, photo, avanga appa amma peru, ooru nu ellathaium potu ellaroda vaalkaiyaiyum seeralichiduringa, avan avanuku vantha thaan da ungaluku valitherium illana ungaluku lam oru news thaana. Intha news adutha soodana news varavarikum ivanga valka thaan ungaluku timepass la. Athulaium oru lower cast ponu ah yaravathu rape oh suicide oh illana kolaiyo panitanunga na ungaluku antha kolai karpalipu athalaam vida ungaluku ava lower cast dalit girl dalit girl nu news ah potu ethu prechanainu theriyama aakiduringa.
Oru nalla journalist ah oru eduthukaata intha makala nalla purachi valila alachitupoga vendiyavanga neenga sir, ungaloda sitrinbathukum pathaivikum unga manasatchiya alichitu mathan vaalkaiyaium alikathinga sir. Ivangala vidunga,
News thana ah podanu, atha ipdai podunga, news ah padikiraven ketukaraven nadanthathu avangavanga akka thangachiku veetula irukura ponukum ithea nelamaithan, intha oru ponna focus panna silla nala ulanga unmailayea varunthum, but enna proyojanam,
Unga news ah keata bayam varanum sir, sathana makkalu ku illa, inimea or ithuvaraikum ipadi pannavanukum panna ena nadanthuda pothu nu thonukira mirukathukum bayam varanum. Ena ithuvaraikum neenga sollura mukkavasi news lam police thaamatham police altchiyam nu thaan iruku, selathadava apdi poguthu but pudichathaiyo avanuku kadumaiyana thandaniyo neenga sollurathu illa…. Avanuku kudura thandanai kammi nu neenga eduthu sonnathaan naalaiku makkala ku kovam varum, kovam vantha thaan kurangal koraium. Puritha thambi ???
Namba vaalura naatuku motha valuvom apporam namba sokusa vaaluvom !! santhoshamea illatha naatula nanmba mattum santhoshama iruntha namba etho thapu pandram nu artham , itha poi makkaluku puriya veinga thambi….

*police approaching parent*


Tuesday 5 September 2017

What is your happiness

Went to Velankanni Basilica for the feast. Went to near by village beach and was playing cricket with the little boys and took some slo-mo videos while they where batting. They were very much in hyper happy mode when they see their batting in slow motion. They asked me to take video of every one  like this, I took slo-mo shots of every one. Every one was happy seeing it and i was literally hella happy too. Slo-mo video of them making them this happy, they didn't even think about getting it in another phone or asked me like that want it out something. they where very much happy just by watching it. Some slight difference in the perception of things or moments I guess but it's deep. Their happiness is simple and smooth I guess. After all they aren't that much old enough to have crazy dreams to have happy state of mind 😂😂😂😉
Above video is for them
Next time I will be showing them and will be  seeing more smiles

Sunday 30 July 2017

Result

                                     5th July 2017
         Am in my home finishing my surgery practicals, waiting for my results. Already it’s been 6 years, if I pass this time I will try to complete my internship by next year hopefully and I will be a fine graduated MBBS doctor by 24.
        Last time when results came it was second week of January 2017, I was in my peripa (dad's elder brother) home when results was announced, I couldn't breath properly, because for last two days was like this by this same time, some motherfucker will call and tell that today by noon results will be announced till 6pm I will be in same state of mind with tachypnoea, tachycardia, palpitations, anxiety, mild tremors because that was my second attempt and I had arrears in Medicine, Surgery, Pediatrics so I was little less confidence in my results because am weak in theory and adding to that surgery paper was tough but in practical exam I nailed it so in some confidence thinking I would pass plus desire of getting new phone I came to a conclusion of getting a new phone because that time dad was in a mood to get me new phone with big budget I asked for pixel but he suggested Samsung so ended up with Samsung S7 edge I was terribly happy after getting that mobile that was flag ship mobile of that brand and that was the costliest mobile I ever bought and mobile was awesome. But deep inside I was thinking about my result and got mood out but I left that thought soon like let the result come. telling myself that worrying is using our imagination in negative way, worrying not gonna make any difference in the results ... bla bla bla...., finally result date came I was in peripa house in fright sympathetic system activation my bowel was emptying frequently I came from toilet slept in the bed in the hall and was trying hard to sleep but couldn't so I was just closing my eyes and lying down and was thinking about my first time result of final year June 2016.
            I was in peripa house only, lunch was getting ready but I was in the same state of anxiety and worrying about my results but I studied okay and did practical exam good but from L.K.G till now for every exam I wrote I by default think, I did the exam well and every time that was right, but I thought the same scenario will happen in college but I was wrong many time right from my first year I failed in all three subjects. So my family decided to keep tuition for me for all three subjects, I said I don’t need for Physiology, so I got help from Mugunthan sir for anatomy he is really very good professor, sometime I will be studying in his home that time when I fell sleepy he use to put tea as a refreshment for us, for biochemistry I got help from Niranjan sir, he was having hard time with me initially, because I want do writing he give be me before day, later he told my family… BOOM !! abracadabra everything fell in the places properly. I r ed physiology by myself so I was very worried that it may be gone once again but to my great surprise I cleared all three subjects in the next attempt, everyone was amazed so I was, but I didn't felt any major changes in my theory performance but the thing is I passed all three subjects Anatomy, Physiology, Biochemistry in second attempt in first year then came second year exams literally I swear I dunno how I passed all the subjects in first attempt Pathology , Microbiology, Pharmacology, Forensic Medicine. I know I will be passing in Pharmacology for sure, not that I studied that good its because HOD ma’am was that good ma’am, Forensic medicine was kind of R rated subject so little more interest in it, so I know thing in it. But Pathology and Microbiology is simply huge, specially pathology is double huge, but still I studied both the subject kind of good and I passed in all the subjects by getting exact pass mark that was both shocking and awesome. In third year there was three subject E.N.T, Ophthalmology, Community Medicine. In these ENT they make us to study in different ways like asking questions in demo room, seminar, assignment which I wrote two notebooks fully. Community Medicine is like doing PhD in English literature, if we write the exam well literally we will pass. Ophthalmology was also easy or we can it not huge, but lazy me got failed because I focused more on ENT and CM. but I cleared it next time, I wasn’t I that much tension. Finally came FINAL YEAR exams and it went awful and it ended. I was in Thanjavur, waiting for my results, since I was little more frustrated and bored and empty I stayed there in my peripa house, for 2 days I was just under serious mood out and then third day result I was severely mood out because of my results. I  and was struggling by thinking what am gonna do. First said to my peripa and perima and to my brother about result, they were not upset with my results but instead they were consoling me that MBBS is little tough only. They told me read will next time and get though final year. But that day I didn’t tell about my results to my parent because I scared and dad was also little ill and decided that I will tell him tomorrow morning and I asked my peripa to tell that lot failed in exam this time external was tough and the correction was also tough, to be true that was the true. Likewise next day after noon I called my dad and said him about my results he was damn upset till that time I was there in my peripa house only, I was getting some scolding from dad then cut the call after sometimes mom called and said it okay don’t worry too much you can clear it next time, try the revaluation this time and asked me to come home. I went home then went to college applied revaluation as expected no change in the results. Little more disappointment because I genuinely studied good and prayed a lot but thing weren’t favoring towards me. June ended in a bad way, but at least I got my friends who are in the same boat very few reached the shore, so hoping for better new year and results I started preparing for my exams, two or three months later`
                      
                           Now we are in January 2017 phone was ringing I was in the same bed in which  I was sitting during my last results in which I cleared only in Obstetrics and Gynecology. I took the phone and saw GK was calling and answered the phone he said I passed only in Pediatrics alone I couldn’t tell anything I was very much worried because literally I didn’t work hard for Pediatrics I just studied for 3 days I had that leave after my surgery theory and I passed in it but I worked hard like shit for surgery and medicine but I fucking failed and I was thinking what am gonna tell my parent, I actually said them that surgery was bit tough but I failing in medicine was shock for me too. I dunno whether they will understand me or what they gonna think, I was highly worried about my dad’s disappointment because of me again and again, this is the only thing I was worried and prayed that this shouldn’t be ending like this but my fucking bad time it ended in the way I feared. I told my perima and my cousin brother, they this time first consoled me then enquired what the real difficulty and then I called my peripa and said about this he said okay lets talk about this by evening and we will tell about results tomorrow. I couldn’t eat that days lunch that day was Friday peripa came home and said two subjects only right study well and clear next time, your dad will be worrying if he know this, tell him tomorrow morning he is already ill and he went to change his clothes. Mean  time I thought about reality and felt very bad and prayed for myself to help me. And felt really guilty about this that I really don’t wanna make them to feel bad thinking about me but I couldn’t help with that. Later,  peripa came and see my face and he took me and my cousin brother to hotel and bought us parotta as comforting I guess. Next day I went to my home that was Sunday I still didn’t tell my family, I can not do it because I don’t have that much inner strength so I planed like I go tomorrow to college telling my family that tomorrow the results may be put. So I next day Monday I went to college by noon time and when I was in college my dad called that time itself  I told him that just now results was put on notice board and I failed again in medicine and surgery and he felt very bad and what am gonna do why are you and passing and what is your problem in getting through this but I had no answers for those questions I was standing still and after some times of silence he hung up the call and mom called me and advice me don’t worry study well, only two subject is there, don’t worry just study well. I went to my home in Pondicherry there I said my grandma and grandpa about my results and they didn’t tell much they too said study well next time and things were just like that was so hard while thinking about my family and two main subjects am still having no change in the hard work needed or technically no burden was reduced plus added up disappointed father about his son mom was not that much disappointed or she is not showing her feeling. What ever it is the most fucking rough time I was facing. As my mom and peripa said I applied for re-evaluation with less hope because I have applied for myself for re-evaluation three times and including me everyone got no change in the re-evaluation results. February came, I was on my way to MMC after attending my first day of medicine practical class conducted for failed students. That time I got call form GK but this time oh my god he said unbelievable and happy news, actually half happy but still I was hella happy, he was first to convey I was pass in Medicine in re-evaluation, that time I remembered all my prayers I did, asking Jesus to change my results from fail to pass as you were changing water in to wine in the marriage. Yes it worked god answered my prayers, may be half this time fully next time, I was thanking god for this needed miracle, then I said my friends everyone was happy and dad he was kind of happy and mom and both peripa everyone was happy only creature was little sad because I passed was Walter because we both failed in medicine and surgery and planed to study together but in re-valuation I passed in medicine.
                      This time June 2017 first paper was easy and second paper was too general about surgery little disappointed by paper two question, Practical long case I did well short case was okay not bad but orthopedics was kind of hell. Despite of how many subjects or how much days for study or how hard you study, I always have tremendous amount of fear while thinking about results. This time single subject so kind of little cool, mostly I will pass. If not am fucking doomed for another 6 month I an unimaginable way
                  Toady 7/7/2017 Dhoni’s birthday, so far I didn’t get my results. If I pass I will be updating this quicker if not I need some time to gain strength to write about how fucked I was from the day of resultL. Fuck it.
With lots of prayer and hope waiting for my results… Ciao~     

18 July 2017
                                      Mother fucking results came on 15th July along with mighty tides of sorrows and pain and disappointments and regrets which all successfully made me to question the use of my integrity and doubt my capabilities. I was actually was that much terrified about my results because two thing, one is I believed I have done both surgery theory and practical good enough to pass and that’s true my gut says and Secondly I was in some kind of fake confidence that am having only one subject that I will pass for sure even I know in past history there is victims who   were suffering my current situation, still I was clouded by various fake confidences or over confidences but that didn’t affect my preparations in anyway am damn sure but I still feel something of this must do with my reduced fear and that leads to reducing of my request to pass me in the exam to GOD, I was searching place where I did mistakes now.
                               Saturday, the confirmed day for the results, noon time I was trying to be cool and I put my mobile in mute and was reading one Indian women. Out of some urge and anxiety I checked my phone there was missed call from Ritchie and there was a image received from him, I checked that message that was picture of results displayed in notices board, I searched my name hoping there must be pass pass in my line but there was fail fail yup it was like fuck you fuck you, that right a fucking huge wrecking ball hitting all my dream I thought I would be getting after pass this thing which turns out a fat kick in my ass. And I called Ritchie I guess and he was searching for words comforting as I was pressing him with my shock and heart break moment over him. Yup seriously, it was huge heart break because i haven’t been in a serious relationship so I dunno about break ups but all I do know is every time when my results says I have failed despite of all my hard work and sacrifice and all the tough shit I was going through for months had no use.
                               This time I was in my home, my brother was there from beginning right from the shock moment then to depressing moment after hearing results. My next though was how am gonna tell my parent about this am already soulless body. I was sacred how to tell my dad about this and evening came dad was in home mom is not still home I was in deep oscillation shall I go and tell him first. I was thinking with lot of guilt and the time is now six thirty mom, was now more tensed that how am gonna tell her. Call her, she came into room and asked me confusingly what happened after seeing my uneasy face I guess, i said results have came and with that discomfort from me she guess have I failed again I said yes. She started to feel bad about the fail and was asking why what happened you said you did well right !! I said yes I did both theory and practical good and now she was worried like me how to tell my dad about this, dad was bust in call soon he finished his call mom entered the room I was following her. After she opened the hard news I was thinking infinity worst scenarios in my head that might gonna happen but what happened was out of the box, dad was kind off calm and asked me you done well in the exams right I said yes and he said why they are doing this and was concerning about the months that’s keep on wasting every single time and called peripa to tell the current situation and asked can we sort out this and after the talk he said me lets try to sort out. Yup that was hugely taking care of my sinking heart in worries. Apart from my own shattered dreams this negative result shatters my parent’s dreams too, and seeing them feeling bad about us will even more kill us and destroy completely but actually most this what they feel and think Is what we assume that’s happening. But above their hard feeling they this time they said my don’t worry, you have done this time good right, so lets try to sort this out or study hard more you will finish soon.
                                Next day I came to Pondicherry, hoping that something could change with god’s grace. Not yet received my mark sheets but am now in Pondy hoping that I should have failed in theory in very bored range so possibilities of change in result will be high and praying to god as much I could because last time he did a miracle in my life am thankful to him wishing that same must happen. And praying to give courage and endurance to face my life with all its crazy tragedies and stay with me and guide me always.
                             Genuinely I thought, this blog will end after my result that I passed, but Its continuing till I pass in December or in re evaluation. Seriously all I the above thing I wrote are just the narrow short story of what happens during every results and how that makes me to feel. to be true it’s a tip of iceberg. If am more good in writing I can sure write trilogy will all the mixed emotions and breaks I had these many times. Crazy life it is. But its over when we think its over. Fake it till we make it. Will see you after re-evaluations or in December…


                                                                                  20/11/2017                 am here in thanjavur after completing my theory exams. i seriously dint read the above things in this blog today because i dont think i could lots of true sorrow stuffs. 
               theory paper was easy and practicals on December 19th huge gap inbetween. hopefully i must pass this time in practicals and theory too. practicals must go as easy as theory. oh god please help me !!

                                                                                    30/12/2017
 GOOD NEWS !! finally passed in surgery. seven days after my practicals it came, its the fastest decision my college taking next to giving suspensions. they said i would be early. On 27th they said today result is coming but i still was not that tensed because inner me said they are fooling you and making you tensed like before so be cool we have time to do all that. Rocket called me and said check our college site they have published it in online. suddenly all that feelings came in to me, those tension, palpitations, mild breathlessness, dry mouth, world was slow motion, sympathetic system took a jump start, i got some feeling in stomach that was the most prominent thing. all this happened, mom was near me, she asked me what, i said result came it seems, she immediately looked at picture of god and prayed. i saw that and got bit more scared and prayed oh god please save me and finally opened my college site result page and it was asking my roll number and my date of birth. i was telling Jesus Jesus Jesus for every letter i was typing that much scared i was, i pressed ENTER and the i felt my heart beat and full focus on screen and mom was looking at me and i was looking at the screen and more slowing down of world page almost loaded and it flashed boom !! i saw was four letter word and cant read it that much tension built inside bad thing is PASS and FAIL have four letters and went little closer and saw the word PASS !!! felt the rush of happiness inside me that 2 seconds of eternal peace which Ritchi used to tell and said my mom i passed. she wished me congrats and went to god`s photo and prayed and me to prayed from from my chair and slowly world was came back to normal speed and body felt light and i put PASS in the politics circle group they wished me and calls came and congrats came and i called all my family members and said with happiness i passed they all were happy as me i guess.                                                                         since result was not put up in notice board, PCU was asking about raja and ashok`s result. first i saw raja`s result motherfuckers they failed him in all the subjects he would be sad because he comparatively to previous exams he diid he worked for this. i thought he would have cleared any two but life isnt fair after all, i dunno how am gonna tell him because, he cheered me up when ever i was down even on the result day i was scared and i call him he said " there is no point for you to get scared or worried about your result " and said get ready for internship. that much good heart now gonna get sad by me i thought what to do, i called GC he was with raja, he said we know his result just now and nothing more to talk so i said something and hangup.
                Not even one time where everyone in PCU was happy after the result day, that is the only thing PCU never witnessed. Then i saw Ashok`s result he passed he passed with flying colours. 
               Next day raja called came, i was thinking multiple things and attend the call, he said "congratulations" à®‡à®¨்த மனசு தான் SIR கடவுள் !!. next result will be about his. he loves to pass but not willing work hard for that so am gonna make that my foremost duty to make him study hard as much as he is partying. mad mofo right now NEWYEARS EVE  he is dancing in Pune to EDM. :D


Monday 3 July 2017

MAGILVITHU MAGHIL

MAGILVITHU MAGHIL

               How about a story of a couple who had surprise over surprise and tiny bit of twist over a single dinner? And it’s a story about love in its singularity. Wish this happened in my life. This will be my first story as soft-copy which is as complete and hopefully doesn’t fades out from the initial spark that carried me to this stage. Since am new to the blog and stuffs thought of sharing my story with you guys. Actually I think am not that good to bring the thinks what I think in to words without dropping its charms. But hopefully one day I will, Oops too much waste talks going, I guess lets go in to the story

         Pondicherry, one fine night, under a almost waxed up full moon, in a hotel roof top in fourth floor near beach side which gives partial roaring sounds of the waves and the messy breeze filled the entire space along with four early forty men who were under deep politics topic in their world in a table and four foreigners in a table and next there was a group college students having their high happy times and in another table there were a couple completely in love by the corner and one more large table booked was empty, one the whole rooftop was like busy world with their own busy nations. The place is fully set in mood of tips & trippy. Entrance was at the lift and opposite to lift there is bar and now bartender is playing with cocktails and fire.

             Lift reached fourth floor, lift was up to open but before that came out shootings’ of bad words out of anger and disappointment that ended like don’t ever talk again, eat shit and die bitch!!! and the life opened our heroine Jolly is consoling our hero Sam that "it’s OK if your friend couldn’t make to my birthday celebration, all I need is you for my birthday" said jolly holding Sam’s hand close to her heart and Sam now kind of diverted from anger and disappointment. They are now walking towards their booked table, everyone took a moment to appreciate this couple who is celebrating their day, Jolly is wearing navy blue Sheath dress and pointed toe pump which is enhancing her beauty like a catalyst, she is in the middle of extreme hot and cute, her hair was dancing in the breeze and the way she is carrying herself like a queen of eliteness!! Wow, even one who isn’t a foodie can describe her as walking chocolate statue which any man in the world would wish to fall repeatedly in love in all his seven life. And our Sam to be crisp about him he is a hot nerd in his anchors printed dark shirt with denim jeans and brown brogues, if you were a cheerleader you will be cheering for him “ go sexy, go sexy, go sexy “
              They are walking towards their table which is across every table, Sam for a moment checked beautiful moon up him and the breeze that constantly touching him with loving care like jolly who is now walking with him walking hand in hand like rain and rainbow gave him a tipsy feeling and knowing who is the center of attraction in the now time and he said softly in to jolly’s ear, look baby everyone point of focus is on us and gave a HOW YOU DOING smile & a wink. Jolly replied “excuse me Mr. Dreamer wake up and realize that everyone is check out me like, where is this angel’s wings”, He elbowed her and telling in creepy tone “or they must be wondering where do she get her BITCHY PILLS. Hand in hand untangled quickly and She almost on target to his womb raider, but he jumped as a result of fright reaction with a thud noise and now literally they became peoples attraction, so they settled downed quickly  in their reserved table which is empty but them facing each other and the cake arrived them with lighted candles. Now Sam was really upset again, he looked jolly and said “fuck my friends man, those people aren’t people, so why can’t we call these people” and stood up and clapped 1, 2, 3. Jolly in both shocked and confusingly looking Sam and people there looking at him and wonder what could be his tremendously awesome announcement going to be. Sam gave a brief smile to all of them and started his speech “my dear friends from earth… thanking you cause you gonna share your precious moments with us to make this evening memorable… this infinite beauty my girlfriend’s birthday today, actually I planned a grand dinner with my friend yup with my freaking lying friends, I dunno how all of them got busy with their patient’s brain and heart transplantation before finishing their MS ???… lying mofos. But, on other bright side you guys know this if one doors closes another door must open, seeing this birthday cake and us and just empty chair near us do not exactly upset but if you guys don’t mind accompanying us, this will definitely turns out as one of the best memory, am here cordially inviting you guys and SHOTS on me guys”
               Foreigners came towards jolly and were cheering up, wishing her, then came college students singing birthday song towards jolly and Sam, surprisingly that busy couple who were in their world came to wish jolly really moved jolly and Sam, finally Sam checked for those old men but there wasn’t any signs of them getting up, so jolly cut the cake in a polite and calm way and shots came to everyone and everyone raised their glass up for the toss. “Noooooo” strong shouting came from the entrance side, everyone turned towards the noise pollution created by group of humans holding a big cake and champagne, everyone with shot glass was cheering them but Sam is counter shouting them with all the bad words knowledge he has gained so far and run towards them in anger tension in rooftop increased damn high, everyone was waiting for the climax and he reached his friends Arjun, Ritchie, Raaj, Baala, Master, Walter, Rocket, Adil, Ashok, Jeni. He jumped shouting towards them and hugged everyone in a crazy way. Everyone gathered around the cake once again and jolly cut the cake and half of the cake was in her face and remaining half was is everyone’s hand and face, everyone were chasing someone and whole rooftop was a mess and in some other mood which was drifted from its default nature. One sharp shout “What the fuck guys“came out with full of anger and that shout was from one of the four uncles who was standing and facing towards the cake filled faces and he continued saying ‘we are in a middle of official meeting and you guys, what’s all this don’t you guys have some manners’ the roof top turned back to its default state. Raaj came in front and wiped his face full of cake and greeted that officer, hello ACP sir!! now the tension among crowd was less reduced and surprise was even more, that ACP also recognized Raaj and laughed out for what have happened, Raaj invited them and introduced jolly and Sam and those uncle blessed jolly and joined the toss for jolly’s birthday, and its was big cheerzzzzzzzz…………..
:)
   
                  
                
                
           ........... Am done :D



Wednesday 17 May 2017

Funny Fear

Funny Fear #Thoughts
F.E.A.R = False Evidence Appearing Real
It’s so irony we work sadly everyday for happy future but we everyone die with the glimpse of seeing what happy life we actually wanted by the time we where actually thought we would be.
I know very well that normal is an illusion but seeing something so abnormal which is so obvious but failed to appreciate by us because we have been tune in that way despite of wise people’s advice. Dunno how this all sets in but I guess it’s all have two great root, like little man and fat boy which destroying our happy life invisibly.
*Need of money and never​ ending immortal desire*
These two almost seems to be doing same action but in different level in different ways things they are doing is Inhibiting our happiness and pushing ourselves into sadness depression and Ill health directly or some other astonishing way that we are super blind  not to appreciate it.

Do we think why are we born ??? what’s our human life is ??? What’s ultimate goal as humans ??? How we should live ???..... Am damn sure everyone one have different views !! That’s so obvious cause we are humans this is what we do ....!!!
My, “the most simplest and practically impossible view about life”is
 “1) we are born so that we give birth to offsprings
   2) we have to transfer the knowledge we gain to our next generation “

So literally we have to worry only about this
***LIVE~REPRODUCE-DIE & FUCKING REPEAT***
Any other thing which we consider as a problem ain't a problem in future cause time happens to change the event and us we were.

So far... Right now...

THE END°

Saturday 6 May 2017

Le partying house #MyWish

**Mission house party
*Living and non living and hot and cold and tipsy and smoking things needed

... #PCU
... Other close human friends required/optional
... French girls high preference
... Never say no to aliens
... Goooooood house without asshole neighbours
... Blacklight theme
... Minimum beer
... Maximum shots (being & end with it)
... Vodka & rum & fresh juice can
... Bartender or Pro human OH mixer
... Secret stash of ash of grass of go green
... Floor breaking sound system
... Never Upsetting DJ
... Games other than truth or truth
... Fight without inviting police
... Dirty dance without hurting feminist
... Free style show-off session
... Little Raja sir melody
... Little psychedelics
... Little metal head
... Little your pop
... Pool with water
... Lights for tripping in the speed of light
... Food for show stoppers
... Pickles for vegans no offence
... Handy cam full time recording
... Infinite fun/happiness/memories

::: Infinite money making on progress
.......... Wish will soon be a memory

Sunday 9 April 2017

HOW TO GAIN PATIENCE

HOW TO GAIN PATIENCE
                   

                        It’s always fun and interesting to read, think, watch, hear, talk, discus, and dream about what we don’t have and we desire to have. As per human law we most of the time we love chase the most those shitty desires that seems to be the world but nope it’s not. We attain this “nope it’s not” wisdom little later which is exactly after getting whack in ass.
                      Likewise patience is what we most of us don’t have, and always wants patience like world is badly in need of peace but bad time its having directly opposite of peace and our bad time we are in the world and our minds collaboration with world I guess which also need of peace in the form of patience but mind isn’t getting it.
                     Lately I got some patience, literally a very little patience and it’s a huge change. I can’t see in me but I could see in my friends or even some common people who are like my past me or impatience me. Some are bore of my advice and sometime am little sad for my old me and little happy by seeing angry strangers who is need of patience that I just acquired after chronic phase of repeated struggle or sadness or my bad times for the future good time

                     Congratulations, actually not bad, you are having patience to read this much which is a good thing anyways try the below thing to train your mind to seek calmness or patience at the time of impatience.
                     
  1. Smoke Up* 
  2. Use a deadly slow mobile phone for a few months
  3. Use public transport at the time of important meeting or dating stuffs
  4. Sitting in a sober state with your drunken & freshly heart broken friend in the name of love
  5. Teach old people how to become a pro social network
  6. Wait for your friend without charge in your mobile in nowhere region
  7. Answer all the question asked by children and elders in the way they love
  8. Watch drama movies more
  9. Do day-to-day stuffs but in the old fashion for example MAKING FIRE to TALKING WITH PEOPLE
  10. Hear stories from toddlers and daily happening in their school